Carl,

I had my first experience with The One Sovereign Light at age 9.

At my request to, “do something great” on its behalf I have journeyed through many levels of awareness and perception, which earned me some time in the “Looney Bin” however, my chosen journey into my whole awareness has culminated into assisting others emerge from the distorted vibrations that becon us all.

I didn't know it at the time but, I started doing my own VibeSync recordings as a form of self-therapy, after my 16 month-old daughter died of a rare and mysterious infant cancer, in 2001.

I suddenly began varaciously studying my way out of being a mental health consumer, into a spiritual minister and then, into a peer specialist to consciousness activation.

Recently, I was drawn to VibeSync via Kidest Om's insightful videos and soothing voice on energy and I really just wanted to tell you what a tremendous gift YOU ARE to humanity's whole and complete consciousness journey. My personal journey from the pit of madness has proven to me what you saying is true… “We Are All One!”

Well done and Well Journeys to You and to Yours, Mr English, my earthly friend and spiritual brother. Keep On!! Peace…

~Minister Charles Lee, Jr – CMPS, Sp. A~ (a.k.a. Kolt4JC)

Hi Charles,

thankU so much for your mail. Came in perfect timing. I too am going through

what would seem to be leading to the 'Looney Bin'. What could only be

described as explorations of extreme polar opposites, one day extreme bliss

& oneness with the All, the next day one of suicidal depression.

Even-though I know I'm venturing into what needs to be integrated on the

down days, the 'suffering' is quite extreme. Labeling it has a 'high state

of being' gets me through the transition. Mainly the Oneness has led me to

drop all concepts of Time & Money. Concepts which the majority of this realm

is structured by. I would say the 'problem' is integrating back into

society, but at the same time knowing that I want to hold a New state of

Being as an example to the Other. Dropping to an old state just isn't

possible as I've gone too far =D

What was the defining moment of no looking back for You?? Thanks again.

Carl

Ah Carl. Am so relieved to hear that you too bounce from suicidal one day to extreme bliss the next. The reason I'm happy for this, is that it synchronises with my life journey (and in particular where I'm at right now) so while listening to your various posts, I've been wondering how the hell you can maintain the high vibe you that you have seemed to. I know I certainly can't maintain mine yet. Like Abraham says “Once you go in, you can't go back, you come to know too much”. I think this state was diagnosed by previous generations as Midlife crisis / nervous breakdown / and now bipolar, I suppose. I dont buy into any of those labels – I KNOW it's just energy flowing freely or energy being resisted. But what I'd really like to nail is: when i'm feeling suicidal/despair EVEN WHEN I KNOW (intellectually) i'm an eternal being of love, all that is (but i can't FEEL it), then what process (god knows I've tried them all!) can i use that brings me back into the KNOWING (and THE FEELING) of the love that i am. I'd really just like one sure-fire process. What i find is that if i 'feel my way” (abes: seek relief), i can inevitably feel a bit better, bit better…but GOODNESS that can take time, hours, days. yesterday there was no moving my suicidal/despair thoughts/feelings nomatter the meditation, the painting, the cooking, the flowdreaming, the reading (quantum physics cheers me up sometimes), the listening to hayhouse (good interview with marc allen)… none of that did it. you know what brought me around? jumping on realestate.com.au and looking at $6m mansions. had a blissful night's sleep and woke up stoked to be alive today, connecting with my fiance-who's-been-in-non-physical for two years. yes i want abundance, yes home is something i'm into. but truly, what i was straining for yesterday was not any of that (side issues, as i like to think of them): i was only ONLY wanting to feel myself as pure-love… yet couldnt get there until i dropped the whole topic of my own spiritual connection entirely and looked at kick-arse houses for 4 hours straight. path of least resistance i spose. yet other days these topics offer more resistance. i like the exploration but it can certainly be baffling at times. maybe i needs to makes myself a library of feel-good activities on hand, 24-7. but really, why would i do that? i'd rather not assume i'm going to ride the extremes of this rollercoaster forever. i'd rather position myself to a vibe ranging between “content and bliss” as opposed to my current (and sounds like you share it, at least some times) rollercoaster vibe that ranges between 'despair and bliss'… so at least this concept is on my vortex now – thanks to you for prompting me to post this message and thanks to me for always-working-my-way-to-something-useful-beneficial. and of course, once your in alignment/vortex, all of these quandaries and queries are meaningless – totally non-existent and un-needed. bahah.

It’s really great to find you and those ones that you share with on youtube and here…the things you say resonate profoundly with me and as for bouncing between extremes, I thought was the only one! thanks for your messages, your honesty and openness to share your mind public…that only unify us! and as a great gang we can sheer one another on those rollecoaster lows….loVe to you too -^-